This is a shout out to my parents for paying my insurance most of my life and to anyone else paying for it. My father once told me that there are many people who spend over half of their income on medical bills. It was an interesting thought but I never gave it much more than a moment. ...Until yesterday. I live in Massachusetts where health insurance is a must. I've been scared of it for so long. I finally signed up for it and received my first check with insurance already withdrawn from it. Because of the timing, they withdrew for the whole month. Because of a misunderstanding they had me filed wrong-paying 50% more than I needed to. All in all, insurance added up to over a third and nearly half of my paycheck. My medical bills were nearly to that "crazy" point and I hadn't yet entered a single doctor's door to pay a copayment.
Got it settled today, but I'll still be paying a significant portion of my check to it. I just can't fathom it all...
Friday, March 23, 2012
Saturday, March 3, 2012
chameleon
I've been on a ride for the past four months. No, almost six.
Wow. I moved to the East Coast six months ago....
In a lot of ways I feel a part of two worlds: and Old World and a New. It's not my intention to get stuck on which is which. I feel a clash of interests, values, and patterns of living that present a very stark shift. I've spent six months here in an effort to find my place in the pattern. I believe in standards that are different. I hold a different set of interests--they're certainly ranked differently. And yet I find, sometimes, that my shifts are a cause of concern and conflict.
Concern and conflict were never my strongest suits.
I feel, today, like I'm inconsistent. I'm asking questions about what the core principles behind the values and standards are because I don't want to follow either one blindly. "Tradition" is rarely an answer that I hold to well. "Culture" is an answer that frustrates my sense of freedom.
I guess that I just keep looking for the answer, right?
I'm fasting today to know about some of the conflicting standards/expectations. I want to find the commandments so that I may live the law.
This is on of the few times since my returning from my mission... Let's just say that I usually fast for the same things every month. (It seems like I have the same issue every month...)
It's time for that to change. But the other questions remain.
...at least being like a chameleon isn't always being spineless, it can have some positive elements.
Wow. I moved to the East Coast six months ago....
In a lot of ways I feel a part of two worlds: and Old World and a New. It's not my intention to get stuck on which is which. I feel a clash of interests, values, and patterns of living that present a very stark shift. I've spent six months here in an effort to find my place in the pattern. I believe in standards that are different. I hold a different set of interests--they're certainly ranked differently. And yet I find, sometimes, that my shifts are a cause of concern and conflict.
Concern and conflict were never my strongest suits.
I feel, today, like I'm inconsistent. I'm asking questions about what the core principles behind the values and standards are because I don't want to follow either one blindly. "Tradition" is rarely an answer that I hold to well. "Culture" is an answer that frustrates my sense of freedom.
I guess that I just keep looking for the answer, right?
I'm fasting today to know about some of the conflicting standards/expectations. I want to find the commandments so that I may live the law.
This is on of the few times since my returning from my mission... Let's just say that I usually fast for the same things every month. (It seems like I have the same issue every month...)
It's time for that to change. But the other questions remain.
...at least being like a chameleon isn't always being spineless, it can have some positive elements.
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